all in all

The mysterious parcel from the sweet you

Mere content of whats within

8 letter all in all for 8 days

Day one is a just an instructional piece of whats up for me in the next 7 days

As I moved on to Day 2...

It was a dream catcher, to chase away all nightmares with only sweet dreams of you..

Wanted to open my third letter before I march to Esplanade for my long awaited 10Km run today, however, was rushing around to pack my stuffs, thus, left the house hurriedly.

On the contrary, luckily I didn't open it, because...

omgosh! 

The reason for this:

me (using iphone; can't delete any messages unless you delete all): bbb.... I duno what I press (whining badly), I accidentally deleted all your msgs. :(...... 

This silly boy of mine actually copied all our texts from his mobile with all the conversation we had for the past one month or 2.

My heart sank especially when I knew that he went through nights of writing before he left for Japan. No wonder he has been turning in late. :( Poor boy..

So silly bubs.. You know how much I appreciate all this from you. 

I love you..

Standard Chartered Maration 2008

Ambitiously signed up without second thoughts with J@net to participate in the 10Km Stand chart run at the early this year.

We met up at 715am at Eunos MRT and  head forth to her office to park our bags.

This is the view from her office!!

J@net: T1m better not bring girls home! I can see him!

The run started...

Just before I hit the 5km mark, my thighs and calves were cramming on the way up sheares bridge. I wasn't prepared for a slopping jog as I normally do my runs in Gym. Having stitches too. 

Had been jogging at night most of the time, therefore the sun is a little unbearable for me. 

However, I still manage to finish in 1.5 hours. Slow and steady.

me (panting at the last 1 KM): Jan, this is the longest 1KM ever!!!

Here is me, conquered my first 10Km run. 

Where do I head next?

VBALL at SPANs in Toa Payoh!! 

Am I MAD OR clearly NUTS!!!

But it's a long overdued session with zq and zh. I enjoyed it completely although we are using guy's net and there is NO FEMALE Being at all. 

After dinner, I decided to take a cab home with zh. Being the irritating and with his absolute stupidity, he open a can of worms with the cab driver! 

Long story short, the driver was telling us about how LAO HERO he was in the past, and how he managed to have 3 divorce epsidoe and had a woman killed someone because of him. He was also telling us how charming he was when he was young.

He went on and on and on till I step foot on my void deck.. 

Me: Uncle, can pay by nets?

him: (direct translation) you already step onto the bus and paid you ticket later, what can I do?

me: uncle, learn from you ma! Since you also did that in the past

*he went speechless

At least I manage to shut him out the very last moment. *phew* 

What a complete muse!

(7.45pm)As I reached home, my face kissed the pillow almost immeditately. Wanted to do a 14 hour sleep but was awaken by the screaming kids. :(

Going back to my dreams soon as I promised to meet you at Tokyo airport tonight. See you in half an hour bubs.

I miss you sooooo much..

drained all the energy in me

I'm losing all my energy due to Age.. YES YES people, I'm Aunty Ver0n ma!!

Can't drink anymore, stomach screaming for help

Bones are aching

No more energy after 1 full day lack of sleep and food

Thought I would recover with a good 12 hours of sleep, but, I'm still sleepy. My eyes are closing on me. I need help!!

peering into my bank statements

Passion vs Money?

Fresh graduates=indisputable amount of vigor and drive, willing to fight the world out there, thinking nothing is impossible. I'm guilty of it

A white piece of drawing board is what some employers seek for. No ink on it, it's a drawing board they can begin scribbling on. For those who falls under this category hitch a ride on what we call passion but pay you peanuts. I'm part of it.

When vigor disappears; it's reality check. When you stared into the "blue" looking computer imprinting the numbers your life is worth, it's not funny. I'm poor because of it.

Luckily, I'm not rushing into some money draining commitment which allows me some space to be still gracefully believing in passion. However, when reality checks the second time *DANG! It would be time to move on. Inevitably, I'm still hoping, waiting to equate passion to money before I become jaded. I'm still hoping for it.

I've always been someone confident about my decision; very certain about it before I move a space. Would pin down all possible pros and cons and measure them meticulously before I take that turn. I'm certain I can pull this through because I've yet to regret any decision I've made before. I shall not prove myself wrong this time around. I'm confident of it.

I'm too certain that I would be jaded somehow or another, I would be so demoralized defending my base and fighting wars with "tiredness" and "perceptions", but I'm still hanging on to it.

I'm also so fortunate to have you, who is also shining a torch in the darkest tunnel in front of me. I love you my one and only sunshine.

had an impressive long run

Reluctantly put on my running gear and dragged those lazy feet towards the door. Those cumulated fats are guilty of this indeposition. These unwanted lipids grew on layers after layers because of irresistible delicatessen in HK, pampering snacks fed by my assistant producer, cartons of fries and filet-0-fish left-overs from TV shoots (all thanks to m@ackers ) and guinea pigging on mc@fe product tasting. I was startled when I look myself into the mirror. GOSH! a PIG I SEE!! ahhhhhhh.... I'm determined to dissolve all this unwanted tissues, but but.. I've said this since many months ago. *sigh

Downloaded maroon 5; "won't go home without you" onto my iphone and blast them through my ears as I begin my long exhaustive journey. Fell in love with this song and can't help but keep repeating it although the lyrics are disheartening.

After a good 45mins of slow jog, I was looking out for a shorter route to head home. I won't normally do a jog longer than 1 hour. However, I seem to be lost. As I reach a traffic junction, I confidently took my stride thinking it's the shorter way home. Till later did I realize, it's longer than it should be. Still the determined me, I carried on running before I see familar buildings and landmarks. My jog finally ended in 1.5 hours. *geeze

Many things happened in the past one week, emotions were in total whirlwind. I was so busy, tired, upset and degrees of pain in the heart. I'm glad this disaterious week ended with a good run. Period.