mixes

Had mixes of emotions today. A little of everything.

Frenzy

As I peer into my mini aquarium which is sitting right in front of my lappy, I saw a bloated female guppy. And yes! My worries came through. She IS pregnant!! I googled "Pregnant Guppies" and I found a similar looking tummy of another female guppy. As I sped read on, I saw confirmed the goal. A GRAVID SPOT. Ohh noo... This is when I started panicking. Called the expertise and continued reading up. I was determined to separate the daddies(opps) from the mummie, thus started sourcing for a new temporary home. Was in a mad rush and decided to go for lunch and return with a cool mind.

As I strolled back to my seat, I saw tiny shrimps look-a-like swimming at the fastest speed in the tank. OMG! The frys are out before I knew it. As I read on, I almost fell off my chair. The minimum no. of babies that could be brought to this world is at least 8 and a max of 25! What can I do with them. Started flustering around again, just like when a mum receives a news that her son had a shot gun! hahahaha... Luckily, I have a nice colleague of mine who decided to adopt a new aquarium and we quickly scooped(literally) the mum and the fry into the new tank. *geeze What relief! 

I left the tank in the office with 7 babies, 1 mummie, 2 daddies and a maid (oto). Hopefully I won't see more babies when I am back on monday. *fingers crossed*

Angst

Loads of them after a hilarious afternoon witnessing the birth of baby guppies. Shan't whine on them, after-all is work, and I'm still learning how to handle it diplomatically. But we lay it out finally, and we are both cool about. Thanks girl!

Palpation

No words can describe how blessed I was. Thank you guys, you know I love you all so much and it's been so many years, yet you all rmbred. Special thanks a one sweet girl who had it all planned knowing that the guys won't be so thoughtful and sweet. Yes I am, very very touched and gay. Hadn't felt like this for the longest time. *hearts to all of you.

They are the one who brought joy to my life once again

Was camhoring before the surprise came.

My big big baby boy! my didi!

My bestest bestest bud

He used to be so scrony! But check out the big tummy now.

The lights went off and I was like, huh? Camwhoring needs some light you know..

The sweetest girl behind all this. I love you stef sweetie.

Let the traditional classic birthday photo begin...

The birth of beronica who has a task(set by stef baby) to acc me to sleep every night and be with me when they can't be... *tears*

I *heart you all to bits

immersion part 2

When you are NOT in it

The big word "LONELINESS" explains all I guess. When you are single, you are lonely. Face it! :P

dolling it up

Still dolling up my blog, but somehow don't really understand gibberish HTML, therefore can only make do with their customizing tools. Geeze...

Had a slow morning, took a cab and head down to KAP to collect some food for product shoot this afternoon. Was sitting there in the cab, with headphones stuck to my ears. Situtations like this, my mind would be full of thoughts, thinking about the past and what is there in front of me. A question perks up my mind and I can't seem to find a definite answer for it.

Is there more pros or cons when you get yourself hooked up in a relationship?

When you are in it
At the start, everything seems so beautiful, this is what everyone term this period of their relationship as the honeymoon period. When you are in it, you would hope that this would last forever and it is the sweetest period one can experience. They would feel that they are blissful. Ocassional messages saying how much they misses each other, discussing how can they plan towards spending their lifes together. You can hope that if not for commitments like work or school, you would want that sweetheart of you to be by your side twenty four seven. I'm sure many is guilty of this. I too am *gasped*

As times goes by, all the meet ups became habitual. You might not realize it that it became a mandatory. Things that is repeated over and over again. Spending the weekends together, thinking of places to go since our homeland here is quite tiny. We have to head to places like bintan/bali for a quick getaway. Proberbly finding a new excitment in the relationship.

Squabbles starts to arise, hurtful words were exchanged, occasional sorrys were mentioned either sincerely or just to avoid more fights.

Missing out on gatherings with friends who has always been by your side when he/she haven't come into your life. Those who were used to be dear to you would try to be understanding, and soon you would take it for granted. Soon or later, before you know it, this relationship changed from buds to acquaintances. The meets up therefore has also changed to catch up.

hmmm.. sounds like a bad idea to be in one ya?

However, I'm just painting the worst picture, but in fact, it's also a common facade of this kind of life, would you not agree with me?

On the contrary, there is one heartening fact. There is always someone by your side. You are not alone. Someone there for you to scream your lungs out when you are going through a bad patch with your bosses, tell tales of how bitchy your colleagues are, complaints about your family members and so on. He/she basically is part of your life. The only irony here is, you would not normally tell other people how nasty your partner is because you always want your friends/pals/family to see the most beautiful side of him/her. People around would feel that, hey.. this is a handsome couple, but they don't know how many things are going on behind those beatific smiles, hugs and affections.

But it always feels like heaven when you fell in love. The tenderness of his/her touch, the love seems to be so overwhelming that it can replaces all other pain. This is the magical side of love I guess.

Will continue immersing tomorrow.. till later

yes.. I am back...

Yes.. I am back to blogging. If some might wonder why so, well, I'm feeling better. Especially for those who are especially concern. I'm fine. Thanks!


Yep.. truth devoid. Putting on a strong front everytime, but yet feeling so feeble on the inside really tires me out. That reasons the disappearance. Wanted a good break away from all retrospects.


Had been hiding behind closed doors, opening ONLY to my loved ones. Would take an occasion peek through the door hole and see who is it at the other side. Recently left it agile to someone who seem to be there for me since a long time ago but didn't notice it at all. Sometimes we should slow down our pace and start noticing who is there and who is not. Instead of chasing for the things that are so hard to get, why not, look around, you may find surprises.

Laters~

Everything is over and I am all good!

I guess it's a passing phase, and my world is slowly feeling up with palettes of colours. Although very slowly, but I like this pace perfectly.

Spend a great day with girls closed to my heart on a beautiful sunny saturday. So happy to hear about their blissful life, it warmed my heart.

Moving on...

granny is better

Granny is out of ICU. And it definitely came to many as a surprise. I touched down Adelaide on Sat morning and dashed to the hospital to see her. D@vid mentioned that she is left with 48 hours on Thurs and Sat is the 48th hour. I was so worried that I couldn't hug her for the last time.

When I reached Modbury Hospital, she was so glad to see me. I held her hands and told her that we loved her so much and she has to be strong. She acknowledged with a nod.

Sometimes I wonder, only when something happens in the family, all ouf us would gather together. Won't blame anyone at all, because everyone of us have a commitment in life, be it our own little family like my bro, or even work. To be fair, I won't even bother to take leave to come to aust. But because knowing granny is SO ill, I came.

We gathered. Had a drinking session with the whole family. Granny is feeling better and we rejoiced. Nothing can express how relief each and everyone of us felt. Had a long conversation with Miles, and he mentioned that mum is worried for 3imon. I never knew she was hung up with my bro. That is my mum, always kept things in her heart. I guess I've inherited that from her. bad bad.

Had a beautiful dream that night. My prince charming. This time it seems that I can see vividly into his eyes. He with his beautiful tall nose, an endearing eyes and a kissable lips. I felt so in love just like a little princess falling in the arms of her prince charming. Totally surreal. But *smack smack, back to reality.

I'm in melbourne now, decided to go back only end of this week because I need this break. To realign my goals in life and be back on track in life.